krisbykream wrote:IM CONFUSED WORRIED AND DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I WAS FORCED TO BE CLEAN MY FIRST 11 MONTHS DUE TO INCARCERATION, BUT WHILE THERE, I REALLY WANTED TO STAY CLEAN. I CAME HOME, AND A FEW WEEKS LATER, I GOT HIGH. THEN A FEW WEEKS LATER GOT HIGH AGAIN. THEN I WOULD GO A FEW MONTHS, AND GET HIGH. I WAS FEELING DOWN FOR NOT HAVING A JOB, OR BEING ANYWHERE IN LIFE THAT I WANTED TO BE. THINGS STARTED TURINING AROUND, I GOT A JOB, WAS GETTING A PAYCHECK, AND THAT SAME WEEK, A OLD "FRIEND" WHO IS NOT A FRIEND, CAME AROUND AND WE WENT ON A GET HIGH TRIP. I FIGURED I COULD GO ON WITH GETTING HIGH EVERY SO OFTEN. BUT NEXT THING U KNOW.... MY MONEY IS GONE AS SOON AS I GET IT. NOW, I STILL GET MY BILLS PAID FIRST, AND I KNOW I REALLY WANT TO STOP. AND THIS NEXT PAY I WANT TO PUT IT IN THE BANK AND NOT TOUCH IT AND NOT GET HIGH. BUT I HAVE A BANK CARD. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I FEEL IM STRONG ENOUGH NOT TO. BUT AT THE SAME TIME I DONT FEEL THAT I AM. IM SCRAED. I WANT TO END THIS BEFORE IT TURNS BAD AGAIN. I MEAN IM DOING REAL GOOD. I EVEN GOT PROMOTED AT MY JOB LAST NIGHT TO MANAGER. AND IT FEELS SO GOOD. I DONT WANT TO MESS THIS UP. WHAT CAN I DO?
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